If I'm being intellectually honest, I do not have to pick the worst case scenario. Like being an atheist or hopeless.
If I'm being intellectually honest, I honestly want to pick the best case scenario, like reaching for a good feeling thought again and again yields a good feeling life. Like there is something, whatever it is, after the music stops playing and that something is good.
I'd honestly rather think that, if I'm being intellectually honest.